Travel Tales - Banerghatta National Park

Wondering why write a travel story on the local "Zoo" ?? Well... some outings are just worth a memory.. irrespective of the destination. Our visit to  the national park was one of them. 

Bengaluru Climate is at its best from past few weeks with Cloudy sky,  light drizzle every now and then, and cool breeze through out the day. It's totally worth a long drive or an outing. So last Saturday, as we were finishing our breakfast, Viral proposed to visit  the Zoo. I, as usual, was little sceptical because it was a "sudden plan" and then there were chances of rain and thunderstorms. But the climate was too good to miss out on an outing. Also, Zoo seemed to be the right choice considering Aarav's interests in animals.

So quickly I finished my house chores as Viral kept Aarav occupied. I packed the necessary stuffs for Aarav and in about 2 hours we were ready to move. It had to be a comfy casual outfit  to complement the windy climate. Where Viral wore simply a t shirt and jeans accessorised with woolen cap and shades, I chose sweat-top over jeggings. I dressed up Aarav in sleeveless t-shirt under a hoodie paired up with cargo pants and his woolen cap. Zoo requires a lot of walking around. Hence we three were in our comfortable sneakers. Additionally we carried the Pram, Umbrella, Water and some snacks that even Aarav could eat. 

   

Banerghatta National Park is 14 KMs from my home. Not that far and nil traffic made the drive even more wonderful. Here, take a glimpse of the climate that day . This was shot at around 2.30 pm.

We passed by the place where I spent important and memorable 5 years of my life. Administrative Management College. Moments from my BSc and MSc days held on to me for a while (just like it does every time I visit Jayanagar and gali of my hostel). We crossed couple of international schools that got added up to "Aarav's School List".. Soon we were at our destination and we were Very hungry. The place has lot of options ranging from Street food and chaats, to proper family restaurants. They also have budgeted resort and lodges if one wishes to stay there. It was almost 3pm so we went for Chaats which was a quick one. While Viral was buying the tickets, I saw the sign board on the entry gate that read "Closing - 5 PM" and "Tuesday Holiday". Then I just spoke to Aarav "2 hrs are good enough for our stroll... hai na beta?" I don't know what he understood but he gave me a tight hug. 

When we entered the Zoo, we saw two queues. One lead into the Zoo while the other to the bus going for the Safari ride. We followed the former and started our stroll. 

As we stopped by the cages to show him the animals, Aarav looked more sleepy than excited and instead was watching two dogs running around. He did find the variety of colourful parrots interesting though and identified the Lion, Tiger, Giraffe and the Deers. But looked like he enjoyed walking on his own (instead of the pram ride), playing with the  leaves and branches lying on the pathway and ofcourse the ice cream.                                    

 
 

 

The two hours came to an end and it felt just just enough. We were not feeling tired at all to be honest.

Once we exit the Zoo, there are  stalls in a row that sell aatractive toys, hats, soda, mangoes, berries and roasted corn. We had two slices of raw mango smeared with the spicy red chilli masala , one roasted corn and a soda. We picked one bubble toy for Aarav which he already dropped before we got back into our car. 

So as the sun was setting down and we're driving back home, we just felt lucky as it did not rain at all and unlike other weekends, we enjoyed a beautiful climate, spent some quality time which was all simple but still a Saturday to remember and cherish.

             

Travel Tales - Chotila Hills

After a long break, here I am with my first blog for this year.  And I felt sharing a travel story would be nice to begin with.

Chotila is a Hindu temple town located near Rajkot, Gujarat, India. The Chamunda Devi temple at 1173 feet high Chotila hill is the main attraction of this town. Being our "Kuladevi" (the family goddess) , this temple was due our "darshan" (visit) after Aarav turned one , and hence became our first travel destination for this year. While darshan was the main agenda, visiting my sister in law resided at Vadodara city was also a part. We thus planned a short 5 day trip including weekends which saved us two leaves and chose to travel by air from Bangalore.

Day 1- The Arrival

It was the "meet and greet" day. The morning flight from Bangalore landed in Ahmedabad after 2hrs 10mins. Ahmedabad airport is comparatively small but pretty decent. It took us exactly 2 hrs to reach my sister in law's residence (Vadodara city) in our pre-booked cab. The drive was nice as it was one straight road minus traffic. We packed our lunch from a restaurant on the way and finished the same in the cab. Aarav enjoyed this drive thoroughly and before sunset we were there. With Aarav being the centre of attention it was smiles all around. While he enjoyed playing with his cousin sister, we finished our cup of refreshing Ginger Tea and some yummy Gujarati Snacks. Freshening up, unpacking the gifts we took from Bangalore, chit chat sessions followed by an authentic Gujarati dinner "Handwo" brought day 1 to an end.

Day 2- An evening at the Park

The weekend morning started with authentic breakfast - Khakra and Phafda. One who is fond of ghee, spices and green chillies, this breakfast combo is just right. Khakra is a round and crispy dish. In its roasted form, it is smeared with ghee and specific Khakra masalas (spices) called "Jiranu". Phafda again is a crispy crunchy dish which is dipped in "Kadhi Chutney" (the sauce) while having. The taste enhancers are the fried green chillies and shredded raw papaya salad served as sides. A cup of masala chai completed this breakfast combo. 

The temperature that morning was around 35 degrees. It seemed reasonable to step out post lunch. The lunch was again a filling and delicious Gujarati Thali (a complete meal) prepared by my sister in law that included Roti, Daal, Rice, Alu methi , Shredded cabbage tossed and tampered in authentic spices, Gajar halwa and Gulab jamun. 

A stroll in the nearby park, built in line with Japanese Park, seemed appropriate to spend that evening with the kids. Vast green grounds surrounded by tall trees, colourful flowers grown in a row, fountains & streams, vintage benches made this place worth for photography. Adding to this beautiful, clean and peaceful place were the Peahens and Peacocks walking around. After sunset, we visited the temple within the premises and left the place. The hunger bell definitely rang after the stroll and street food topped the list. So there it was. Pav Bhaji, chatpata Paani Puri, and yummy Malai Kulfi for desert which were enough to call it a day.

 

Day 3-The Climb towards the Temple

It was 7 am on a Sunday and we were all set to begin the journey towards the main destination, Chotila Hill. Being a small town, it is best reached by road. We traveled by our car however bus/taxi services are also available. It took us 5.5 hrs to cover 250 kms that included the break of approximately 1 hr. Straight wide roads again but frequent heavy loaded trucks makes the road prone to accidents. We witnessed couple of unfortunate accidents on the way and hence the drive had to be extremely careful. But the bigger challenge was yet to begin. The temple located at the hill top was connected through 675 steps. Surely sounds an easy climb if compared to the several thousands steps at Tirupati Balaji temple. But its extreme steapness, bright hot sun,  and Aarav in our lap added up to the challenge. While the Powerful  chant of "Jai Maata Di" kept us moving, we were totally exhausted and needles to say, breathless once we reached the top. There were good number of people who had come for the darshan and there were people of all ages. A sliding metal partition separated the male and female queues. Finally it was our turn for the darshan and the pandit performed the required puja for us. A sigh of relief once the rituals got over post which we spent some time grasping fresh air and enjoying the top view. It was then time for our descent. Stepping down the steap stairs was even more scary.  It made me dizzy for sure. With Aarav in our lap, we were watchful and slow with our steps. It took us 1hr 30 mins to complete this entire visit. Once down, we had the Prasad , a glass of fresh sugarcane juice and then left the temple premises. The drive back home felt more tiring and long. We had lunch , tea and evening snacks on the way and reached home at around 10 pm. A 'Travel'some day for sure, especially for a 15 months old but the happiness of fulfilling the big responsibility soon put us into a good night sleep.

 

Day 4 - A Drive to Poicha

It was a usual Monday , a usual working day. But what made this day a special one was       "Daal Baati" prepared by my sister in law for lunch and our visit to Poicha - Neelkanth Dham, in the evening. "Daal Baati" is an authentic Rajasthani dish. It's preparation is quite difficult and time consuming, especially making the dough (baati). But there it was on our lunch table served with chilled "Shrikhand" (an Indian sweet dish made of strained yoghurt). A short nap was surely required after that delicious lunch but then it was time to head out for our last destination in this trip, Poicha.

Talking about Poicha, it is a two hrs drive from Vadodara. The Google images during our research made it a must visit place and I am so glad we made the right choice. As my hubby then commented, if there is a heaven , it must be like Neelkanth Dham. The Swami Narayan temple spread over a massive area is clean all around. The fountains, colourful gardens, tall statues surrounding the temple makes this a photogenic site. The walk through the water flowing out of 108 "Gawmukh" (cow faced outlets), the huge "Shivalinga" amidst clear blue water and the evening "Aarati" makes it the perfect place to spend a day and de-stress yourself. Neelkanth Dham . A must visit if ever visiting Gujarat.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 6 - Flying Back

After capturing loads of memories, it was time for a goodbye, the travel back to Bangalore. So much of traveling and less crankiness makes me believe that Aarav too enjoyed this trip thoughrougly. As this travel tale of mine comes to an end, the remaining worth a visit places will be due till my next visit. 

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The First Grain

Watching your baby grow is a treat to the eyes. I personally felt that third month onwards a surprise awaits you any moment. With the head and neck control being stronger, most babies by their sixth month are able to grab toys, roll over , attempt to crawl and are able to sit with or without support. They also show their curiosity towards food by this time. It is indicative by some of their gestures like opening their mouth whenever a spoon or hand is taken near to them or they start to put things into their mouth on their own. This is when you will know your baby is ready for the "first grain".

For Aarav, introduction of solids started with a ritual called "Annaprasana" held during his sixth month. The actual time and process of introducing solids to the baby varies from custom to custom, and even between a girl and a boy baby in some cases. But most importantly it is the baby's digestive system that should be ready for solid intake. It could be anytime between 4th to 6th month. 

Hence consulting your paediatrician is the very first step before introducing solids to your baby. 

In this post I won't comment much on what to start with or the recepes for baby food as they are widely available on the internet. Alternately, one will have family, friends, neighbours and nowadays even parenting apps to guide through the same. 

Instead I have mentioned 11 things to be mindful about when it is time to start with solids. These are from my personal experience , paediatrician (PED) & family guidance.

1. PED Visit : Even though I have mentioned above, but this is the first thing to do . Consult your ped before starting solids for your baby. You may check for : food to start with and avoid, possible signs of allergies and their remedies, timelines & frequency of giving solids. Invest 10-15 minutes to jot down the related queries before the visit.

2. Quantity : Start with small quantity (eg. 1 tsp of rice) which you can gradually increase depending on your baby's appetite. 

3. Salt n Sugar :  Avoid salt and sugar as long as possible. Instead chose fruits and vegetables that are naturally sweet like beet, carrot, apple, bananas etc. Eight months onwards you might feel the need of sweetener as you start including porridges or halwa to their meal. I learnt recently that Palm jaggery or Palm sugar is an excellent substitute to sugar for infants. Also applesauce or honey (very little) are nutritious alternates. Some articles online mention about using dates puree and dry fruit powders but according to my mother , they are excessive heat for the baby. Hence better to avoid at least for a year.

4. Frequency of Feeds : Feed maximum of two varieties per day (at least for the initial two months) like Rice in afternoon, and vegetable soup towards evening. Continue with BM/FM in the remaining hours.

5. Keep it Simple : Don't mix many ingredients together and be watchful for any kind of allergic symptoms every time you introduce a new ingredient. 

6. Three Day Rule : You may follow the three day rule i.e. continuing with one variety of food for three consecutive days before introducing a new one. Don't worry! you may not have to follow this for long as babies will demand for varieties as they grow.

7. Healthy Routine : Try to follow a breakfast, lunch and early dinner routine . Also avoid fruits in late evening.

8. Home Made v/s Packaged Food :  Home made food are any time safer & healthier. Prescribed packaged baby food can be fed occasionally. In my opinion they are best used during travel. 

9. Keep Calm : Very important to keep calm as initially your baby might refuse to take the food you give . It is because of the milk they were used to until now and may cry in want of the same. But in a week or two they will adapt to the new routine. Also as they grow and learn to refuse, you may have to use various other distraction for them to finish the meal. And this will definitely require a lot of patience.

10. Purée : Needless to say, Pureed form of food should be given initially. Switch over to hand mashed/fork mashed food gradually (preferably after teething) and avoid miximashed food (food mashed in a grinding machine) . This is for your baby to learn to chew slowly. 

11. Stay Organized : Whether it's a well behaved baby strapped on a high chair or an active baby running around during the food time, ensure a bib is always there. Additionally, keep their water sipper , an extra handkerchief or a towel and some of their favourite toys handy before you start feeding them . If you are a new mommy, you will gradually know why I have mentioned this point.

In my view, it is the initial one or two months that might be challenging in terms of what to give and when to give. By ninth or tenth month you will know your baby's taste buds and understand when he or she is hungry for a proper meal instead of just milk.Try not to be very restrictive with the varieties you introduce (unless there is a medical requirement) and let your baby taste the sweet, sour and bitter.  

(Remember that every baby is different hence the timelines mentioned may vary)

While you ensure to give the best nutritious food to your little wonder, don't forget to make them relish some chocolate and ice creams once in a while and capture those moments when they indulge themselves in that taste .

Mommy's New Wardrobe

Be it a day just spent at home or going out for shopping, movie, function or a party, we all want to look our best , irrespective of the gender. "What should I wear today??" is a common worry amongst most of us. But as a new mother, dressing up and styling emerged as a new challenge for me and required a lot of thinking around it. 

Knowing my body well, I was ready to accept the larger sized clothes post delivery. But it's not just the size that was challenging.

My son happens to be an exclusively BF baby whose demand triggers anytime, anywhere. More than hunger, sometimes it's simply an addiction or a need to pacify. Hence in such situations, I personally find outfits like sarees, long kurtas, or one piece dresses like maxi dress, jumpsuits etc. a bit difficult to manage . Especially when I am traveling or 'am somewhere with no facility of a separate child care room. Therefore when on casual outings, a pair of jeans & top or something of similar genre are the most suitable ones now considering my baby's needs and other activities.

Compared to my previous choices that included all kind of tops i.e. long , short , sleeveless etc. , little lose fitted  tops feel more convenient now. With the new body structure, short/quarter/batwing/cut sleeves look more appropriate and stylish than complete sleeveless. 

Pairing such tops or t-shirts with well fitted ankle length jeans, jeggings or trousers, sometimes palazzos and even long fusion skirts feels just right.

For the feet I avoid heels, mainly for two reasons:

1. To avoid unnecessary accidents , and 

2. I find heels inconvenient during a casual mall visit & shopping.

So be it colourful trendy slippers, bellies or sneakers with ethnic, sporty or metallic look, Flat it is for happy feet.

Next change occurred in my accessories. Third month onwards my son had started to grab & pull things and furthermore "taste" them. I realised that some of the accessories have sharp or pointed edges and contain beads or stones that may be harmful for my baby. So whether it's a simple daily wear chain or a heavy jhumka to attend some function, along with the compatibility, I also assess the risk level of that accessory before putting it on.

Talking about the hair-do, it is my best feature which on the contrary is now my biggest problem. I have long hair of thick texture which usually is not so easy to deal with. During my pre-mommy days, I could spend long hours with my hair left lose and straight. Even a messy look sometimes worked as a highlight. But now with my son around and very little time to pamper myself, top knots, low knots or sometimes even a simple braid works the best. Top knots is what I prefer most of the time as it's not that easy to hold or pull, it's easy to maintain, it is trendy and goes with almost everything I wear. 

For the face, a moisturiser and kajal are must for me on a daily basis. Make up that includes base foundation, compact, lipstick etc. are ofcourse occasional and optional wears. But when applied, I am extra cautious not to make any skin contact with my baby's face i.e. kissing or snuggling the cheeks mostly. This is to avoid  allergies or rashes in babies from the content of the products we use (irrespective of the brand). 

Finally, my handbag. Apart from my personal belongings, my hand bag now always has -

1. a sanitiser

2. an extra diaper,

3. baby wipes (travel pack),

4. Extra clothes,

5. one or two hand towels or napkins,

6. one or two teethers or soothers,

7. a shawl or stole (which usually comes handy in case of non availability of a child care room),

8. a cap and pair of socks.

9. water bottle/sipper (taken just before I leave the house).

This bag is always ready and good to just pick and move during those casual weekend outings.

Dressing up and styling is entirely a personal choice and depends from person to person. But be it a pair of Jeans, an elegant Saree or a graceful Gown , many messy moments and some perfect days come tagged along with this "new role". There will be days when you can't comb your hair at all. Inspite of being a fashionista you would have spent a day in just one shabby pair of shorts and t-shirt. Those pre-mommy regular parlour grooming might be the last thing you'll think about inspite of having dull skin & dark circles from the sleepless nights. 

As a new mum , one will learn gradually that in this "new job" it is the thought process that gets a complete makeover. Wardrobe refresh is just one part of it. There will be a change in the books you read, the places you visit, the food you eat and so on.  But whatever the choice be, your baby's well being, comfort and happiness will always be at the top.

When Unique Turned Common

Naming your newborn is one of the most brain storming yet exciting task for the entire family.

While a huge list of names are available on search engines , a unique name is what parents look for. But be mindful that some unique names can also become complicated in terms of pronunciation, spelling or meaning. Hence here are some points you may want to consider before selecting that one special name. 

1. Does the name have a wonderful meaning, irrespective of unique or Common. 

2. Is it easy to pronounce and spell.

3. Is the name in line with the custom (if any) of choosing the letter based on date & time of birth. 

4. It's optional but does your baby's name fit in with the siblings or cousins if any. 

5. Again optional but some couples may prefer to see part of both their names in their baby's name.

6. Nick names are not an issue but you may not prefer your baby's name to be distorted while pronouncing or spelling. 

7. Most importantly, do you love the name , irrespective of whether it's unique or Common. 

I could share these points because of the experience I had while naming my son. My husband and I were in love with the name Aarav and after considering most of the above points we finalised the same. There were no complications or second thought regarding this. At that point, the only other Aarav we knew was celebrity Akshay Kumar's son. But if you go through the amusing incidents below, you will know "duniya kitni gol hai" 😂. 

It was now time to share few of my Son's pictures with his name  on the social media timeline. Where best wishes, love and blessings poured in through the comments, we got to know that one of our friends son is also Aarav.

Once at Kolkata airport, I saw a lady hastening towards me and shouting out "Aarav ...Aarav ". I just stood still with my Aarav on my lap as I was trying to recognise the lady who knew me or rather my son so well. The confusion was soon clarified  when she walked pass me to catch hold of her son Aarav who was running around and playing behind me .

What more!! In our apartment we found out that a family who stays just two floors above us has a 3 year old son named Aarav 😏.

The story just doesn't end here. In a queue during our paediatrician visit, a slight confusion occurred because the child before us was also Aarav . 😱.

Well, this is how the name we thought of so "Unique" just became common. We almost thought of changing the name after facing the co incidents but then we realised that we chose this name because we loved this name and found it apt for our son. Hence changing it just because it is "not so unique" absolutely didn't make any sense. 

So Unique or not, we have a birth certificate reflecting Aarav Viral Shah in bold and it feels good. 😃. And who knows, this common name might become some unique personality tomorrow. 😃. Being positive is the key to move on after all 😉. 

After C-Section

Most of the mums-to-be knowingly or unknowingly suffer from Tokophobia (fear of childbirth and labour pain). Despite of this fear, normal delivery is what they pray for but conditions like lower amniotic fluid, high or fluctuating BP , a big baby and many more calls for a C-Section. But be it a normal delivery or not, all the pain and fear fades away once you hold that little life in your arms.

Having undergone C-Section twice and in a very short gap, I would like to share some dos and don'ts for the mums-to-be to follow after delivery, specifically a C-Section. 

1. Follow Medical Advice - Post delivery, your your health condition will be known better by your doctor. Hence the first thing is to follow the instructions given by your doctor and taking the recommended medicines on time, which usually includes Calcium, Vitamin & Iron supplements, pain killers and cream/ointments for stretch marks reduction.

2. Become an Active Mum - The surgery pain will persist for 3-4 days. But you should start walking from day 1 after delivery. The same is also advised by doctors because the more you sit or lie down, the more difficult it becomes for you to move. Back at home, try doing some of the tasks on your own like massaging and bathing the baby, washing yours and baby's clothes on your own etc. Do Not lift heavy stuffs or bend down much unless advised by the doctor.Do Not overdo or stress yourself. Do take rest the moment you feel tired. You should be back to your normal self by the end of first month itself .

3. Ajwain Paani (Carom Seeds Water) - Drinking warm Ajwain Paani throughout the day along with regular water helps in cleansing the uterus and initial weight reduction. This should be followed for one month.

4. Masoor Daal Paani (Red Lentils Water) - Good for internal cleansing, healing and enhancement of breast milk. Drink a glass of Masoor Daal Paani with your breakfast for as long as possible (preferably 3 months).

5. Doodh Saboo (Milk with Sago)- One bowl of Doodh Saboo a day is excellent for breast milk enhancement. Continue this as long as you can.

6. Gaundh ke Laddoo (Tragacanth Gum Balls)- These laddoos are known to have the best healing effect for a new mother and gives a lot of strength. It helps to get back the uterus in shape & place, cleanse the internal system, and reduction of postpartum body aches. It is made up of many nutritious ingredients some of which are Wheat, Dry fruits, Desi Ghee and Gaundh. One laddoo a day can be consumed daily up to six Months after delivery.

7. Body Toning - While you should avoid heavy exercises up to three months , you must tie a Belt or Saree (the traditional method) around your waist and tummy to tuck in your lose and stretched tummy. Additionally you should get a full body massage done for as long as possible which will help in toning down the body. 

8. Sleep well - Sleepless nights are common with the newborn in your life. However sleep when ever you get the chance even if it is during the daytime. 

9. Avoid Dirt and Cold- A new mum has a weak immune system. Hence avoid stepping out , dust , pollution, and cold stuffs for one or two months. Because if you get ill, the same gets transferred to your baby as well via breast feeding. 

And most importantly, stay happy and stress free. Read good books, listen to music, take pictures or do online shopping if you love the same . Because when you are happy, your baby will be happy and healthy too.

The BIG Announcement

The next thing after your baby's arrival is to inform everybody about your prince or princess. The near and dear ones are either called up or messaged with the wonderful news. But sharing of any news is incomplete unless it's there on your social media timeline, preferably with a picture. In my case , while my hubby did the needful about informing all near and dear ones, I wanted to make this big announcement through my social media timeline. But in line with the postpartum tradition followed in my family, I wasn't allowed to share any pictures until 21 days. 😞. I am sure many of us have traditions in similar lines to obey to but also want to make the announcement in a unique style. This is where my creative mind rang a bell and I utilised it during those 21 days to prepare the below . I was very happy and overwhelmed with the outcome. No downloads from the net, no help from any expert . Just an appropriate use of creativity and smartphone application did wonders. And so , this is how I announced Aarav's arrival😂.

My Sleeping Child

Being a new mum to my 7 months old, the recent Mother's Day was definitely special for me even though no cake was cut or  gift received. Yet I felt happy and proud.  From the time one steps into this incredible journey, a sense of responsibility, awareness and a bit of fear automatically develops along with the life growing within. One often dreams of the  beautiful future  to spend with the arriving member, and waits for the surprise package. Even I dreamt of something similar during my first pregnancy until the big road block hit my way.
It was mid way through the 36th week. Around 8 am on 21st April 2015 the water broke . Happy, nervous , excited and in pain we rushed to the hospital. Soon I was in the labour room, my bed separated by four large white curtains from the adjescent beds. I couldn't see any one near by. Only heard the voices.  I was asked to lie down while the nurse prepared  to check me up. But Something was  unusual at that moment . I could not feel  the movement, the pain was gone,  and  that mild thump on my left abdomen was missing.  I  prayed that everything is OK as my husband waited outside. The nurse finally arrived with the Doppler's machine. I saw her and another nurse struggle to locate the hearbeat . Then I heard them say "can't locate the heartbeat". They rushed to call the doctor in charge during that hour. It was a hush hush situation.  I wasn't allowed to get up nor anyone spoke to me.  Each time a new nurse or assistant came in,  poured the gel , ran the machine over my tummy in various direction but could find nothing. At around 10 my doctor came and asked for a USG. Few minutes later the machines were taken back and everyone left. Only my doc stood there holding my hand and saying "I am sorry, you need to be strong. Let me talk to your husband".  There was this pin drop silence after that . No screaming ,  no tears. I just had a blank mind and a numb surrounding. She then left me alone in that curtained chamber and went out to speak to my husband. Few hours later I delivered my sleeping child , my Ansh.
I Wish "sleeping child" only remained as one of my favourite tracks from MLTR but unfortunately these two words  became the bitter truth of my life forever. 
This incident left me clueless  where I didn't know how to move ahead without my baby now. While I knew he won't come back , I kept hoping for some miracle to happen . Months passed by with tears and many sleepless nights . Soon it was time for me to join back work and start everything afresh.
Things seemed all fine and normal initially as few of my friends and colleagues ensured I stay happy and took good care of me. Some short weekend trips with my husband kept both of us happy. I started meditation, focussed on losing some weight and gaining back the lost nutrients. I listened to music a lot and ensured to keep myself busy throughout​ the day with office or household chores. We visited temple every Saturday which really helped us gain strength and fight through this difficult phase of life.
But as they say, being a mother is the toughest job. For me,  being a "sleeping child's" mother had its own challenges. The fact that I didn't have my baby in my arms after being bonded to him for 8.5 months, kept me irritated and angry most of the time.  The questions "why me?Why him?where did I go wrong?" Always kept haunting me. Posts on maternity photoshoot, any new born arrival , kids birthday parties etc. On social media pricked me.  I even had to face questions  like "what exactly happened that day ?"  " how are you coping up with it" . "when are you planning next?". A usual day even started with  a greeting like " hey , watsup.. how's your baby doing?" And then out of self realisation they even apologised.
With bitter and sweet moments , every single day felt like a long year . By God's grace, within a year of losing Ansh, I conceived again. On Oct 26, 2016,  Aarav's arrival  completed my small world .
The journey of being a mother wasn't very  pleasant for me. Losing Ansh had shattered me from within , but at the same time it gave me the strength to get going and make things right again. It taught me to be patient and think practically even during the intense emotional trauma I was going through . I learnt to chose what is right for the moment where I decided to quit my job at the peak of my career as I didn't want to take any risk with Aarav.
After 9 years of work experience, today I am a full time house wife and I love my new role. Every day is full of love and surprise where I  watch Aarav achieve his milestones while Ansh is missed and  remembered in my silent tears.